elation

well I am just enjoying an afternoon cup of java... trying to contain my excitement!  I just came back from an appointment at the bank and there are hopes of being able to pay off a whole bunch of stuff! (a few things to sort out first) I am really excited about it - I came home to fill Matt in on all the info I had gathered...to find that our whole front and back yard had been tilled! Its time for some planting....

On the spiritual side... planting sounds like a good time... time to plant and cultivate a bit of the word into our lives... time to make the soil of our lives good so that it can receive all that God wants to do...

what's God doin in your lives?

each day is new.

It's been well over a year and I am feeling the urge to begin my journalling/blogging again! I find it so interesting to look over the posts of the past and to see that there really is nothing new under the sun! There are so many things that I could say right now that would just be a repeat of previous posts. However, I find something cathartic about writing down my thoughts and allowing the time of reflection to bring about change and healing... beauty for ashes as my Papa says...
Today is the first day of my journey... as will tomorrow be the first day... and the next and the next - afterall, each day is a new day with troubles of its own... each day I need to start fresh toward becoming the woman that God wants me to be... the last year I have been selfish, I have struggled with my weight and my thyroid, I have struggled to be the woman that God has called me to be and I have rebelled against the discipline that he has wanted to bring... but no more. It is time to surrender to the transformation both on the outside and more importantly on the inside. I long to be who I was created to be... I long to be the child of God that runs toward him with a heart abandoned.. the wife who is counted toward her husband as a blessing, and the friend that always leads people closer to the arms of Jesus... and so if I can make it through one day - I will start the next with the same requests of today... Lord, may I know you? Please reveal yourself to me more and more each day...

Joni is right

a dear friend, whom I almost never see, is right! It is time for an update!  She is also right that I am probably too busy... I have to teach four concepts tomorrow and have only one finished prepping... oi!  It's ok though... I am feeling pretty good about being able to plow through it if I put my mind to it!
I am also thinking that i need to take a break soon to run - cuz its been so long that I am pretty much going to have to start my challenge all over - BOO!  But start again I MUST!  How are all of you people out there doing with your new year's goals???
I have had SO much good news the past few days - really it feels like months because so much has happened in just a week... but until I have the clearance to talk about all of my excitement, hopes and dreams... I will simply leave you all hanging with hope and anticipation!
So what is going on in my life these days you ask... (well what isn't?!)  I am quite seriously thinking, ok almost decided, that I am not going to keep teaching next semester... its just so much work and I really want more time to spend with family, friends and my treadmill... ;) That is my biggest most immediate news! More to come I hope!

time for an update!

So, I am down 12 pounds from Jan1st til now... YAY!!!  Its been pretty great so far - one week of crazy strict eating and then really just trying to cut back on portion sizes and limit the 'bad' (but oh so good) food!  I have not been doing a lot of exercise really... but have started running again - I am doing a couch to 5k program and I am in week four - probably should be moving on to week 5 but I am having some difficulty with this one still the running for 5min stretch is still tough at times... but I am running more than I walk and I am at about 3.4km in 32mins... and the best part: I am loving it!
So I figured that and update would be good, maybe trigger the desire once again to blog some inspiration along the way!

a horrible night...

So I still feel icky... on the positive side I am day 3 into my eating plan and I have resisted the urge to eat SOOO many foods that I 'used to' love!  I have said no to chocolate, cookies, wine, nachos, cheesecake, dips, perogies... the list could go on and on and on... BUT I said no, with the strength that only comes from above... I have taken control of my body... and made the decision to no longer 'like' certain foods...
The weigh in for my DIY challenge was today... and dare I expose myself to the world.. I weigh a NASTY 232lbs... ewww..... makes me want to cry, to hide away and not even show myself... but I won't do that, instead I will say that this is as big as I will get - ever! the changes continue... and I am on my journey to health...
So with all this great stuff, I bet you are wondering where the 'horrible night' comes into play...
Last night both Matt and I were working... and it was the worst thing ever when Matt got called out to a scene where a 15 year old was in cardiac arrest... and then I was there in ER when they arrived... CPR in progress... the result was not a good one... and to make it all worse, there were some other really big events in ER last night too... thankfully they had a positive outcome...
And tonight... well I didn't sleep well at all during the day... and still have a terrible cold, now a headache.. so I am home sick while Matt is back to work...
Leaving you with one more thought/request: please pray for all of those who loved that 15yr old...

3 cheers for good health! (sniffle, sniffle, cough cough)

Well... looks like I am bringing the new year in with a cold! EWWW  I am supposed to go to work tomorrow - first day back after 2+ weeks of holidays (ok I went in for 1 night shift and 1/2 and overtime shift)...
Its been sooo good to have the time off to do a whole lot of nothing  - I mean there is definitely more that I would have liked to accomplish - but rest is what I needed.  And now that I am all rested - a cold?! really?!!  sigh...
So let me leave you with this - What are you doing for your health today? (for that matter.. .what is health?)

DIY

Along with the new year comes new year resolutions... well I am going to just continue on with the ones from this year - its my health!
I have joined a DIY at home fitness challenge... and the pot is actually pretty big!  Even if I don't win - I am going to train to win just like that verse in Cor. says!  I need to make a change - in a BIG way. Really I was just wondering if there is a gal out there who wants to do it with me - you know accountability... call each other in the am - pray together about the day and maybe even walk every now and again.  Let me know if that is you!