Joni is right

a dear friend, whom I almost never see, is right! It is time for an update!  She is also right that I am probably too busy... I have to teach four concepts tomorrow and have only one finished prepping... oi!  It's ok though... I am feeling pretty good about being able to plow through it if I put my mind to it!
I am also thinking that i need to take a break soon to run - cuz its been so long that I am pretty much going to have to start my challenge all over - BOO!  But start again I MUST!  How are all of you people out there doing with your new year's goals???
I have had SO much good news the past few days - really it feels like months because so much has happened in just a week... but until I have the clearance to talk about all of my excitement, hopes and dreams... I will simply leave you all hanging with hope and anticipation!
So what is going on in my life these days you ask... (well what isn't?!)  I am quite seriously thinking, ok almost decided, that I am not going to keep teaching next semester... its just so much work and I really want more time to spend with family, friends and my treadmill... ;) That is my biggest most immediate news! More to come I hope!

a horrible night...

So I still feel icky... on the positive side I am day 3 into my eating plan and I have resisted the urge to eat SOOO many foods that I 'used to' love!  I have said no to chocolate, cookies, wine, nachos, cheesecake, dips, perogies... the list could go on and on and on... BUT I said no, with the strength that only comes from above... I have taken control of my body... and made the decision to no longer 'like' certain foods...
The weigh in for my DIY challenge was today... and dare I expose myself to the world.. I weigh a NASTY 232lbs... ewww..... makes me want to cry, to hide away and not even show myself... but I won't do that, instead I will say that this is as big as I will get - ever! the changes continue... and I am on my journey to health...
So with all this great stuff, I bet you are wondering where the 'horrible night' comes into play...
Last night both Matt and I were working... and it was the worst thing ever when Matt got called out to a scene where a 15 year old was in cardiac arrest... and then I was there in ER when they arrived... CPR in progress... the result was not a good one... and to make it all worse, there were some other really big events in ER last night too... thankfully they had a positive outcome...
And tonight... well I didn't sleep well at all during the day... and still have a terrible cold, now a headache.. so I am home sick while Matt is back to work...
Leaving you with one more thought/request: please pray for all of those who loved that 15yr old...

DIY

Along with the new year comes new year resolutions... well I am going to just continue on with the ones from this year - its my health!
I have joined a DIY at home fitness challenge... and the pot is actually pretty big!  Even if I don't win - I am going to train to win just like that verse in Cor. says!  I need to make a change - in a BIG way. Really I was just wondering if there is a gal out there who wants to do it with me - you know accountability... call each other in the am - pray together about the day and maybe even walk every now and again.  Let me know if that is you!

I feel good..

For the first time in over a month I don't feel overwhelmed with what is on my 'plate', I have some holiday time to catch up with things at home, and time off at the college to get ready for the start of a new year, a new program and a new course.
I have some serious life evaluating to do during these days, I really hope that I can take the time to do that. Has anyone else noticed that time goes by WAY too quickly?! Its unreal!  Sometimes it seems that by the time I get to 'put my feet up' its time to get back up and get busy! I know that part of that is what I do to myself; I take on a lot.
I wonder if that is linked to my weight loss battle? I don't know how many people know me or my struggles... it feels like I have told everyone (and their dog too) about how hard weight loss has been for me... about how living with hypothyroidism has been hellish and the battle to work through the exhaustion and weight gain is the hardest thing I have ever done... This past snowfall, I tried on my snowpants - time to get ready for snowboard season afterall... and they don't fit. My winter jacket is a little too snug for my liking and its too late to do anything about it for this season... now it might sound all boo hoo of me, but really its quite the wake up call... now my weight is impeding on my friendship time - this is really not good. In the next breath, I don't know what to do, it feels like I have tried everything - God I need you! I can't do it on my own! (I've proven that!)
So anyway enough whining.. I feel good! Its almost Christmas! (and my 27th bday!) I am really looking forward to my Birthday Celebration with friends...I think that I have a lot to be thankful for!
OH!  One more thing - Matt starts work on Monday - Thank you Lord for answered prayers!